Tuesday, October 27, 2009

vague passion

It's only Tuesday.


If you're having a bad day fucking tell me about it, if there's some douchebag at work not pulling his weight I want to know, if you can't pay your bills because the economy sucks fucking scream about it...just don't be a fucking vague bastard. Maybe that's just me but I'm tired of people taking the easy way out. If you're going to fucking rant, do it right! and if you're not comfortable spilling your life, why bother even telling us the vague details? If I ask you how you are, I'm not some asshole that will walk away before the answer. I want to know the good with the shit. So spill it. And if you don't want to honestly know exactly how I am doing because my answer is too long don't fucking ask.

In other news, yes it is only Tuesday and it feels like it should be Friday, or at least these two days have been longer than life. I'm in the middle of figuring out next semester and I'm trying to work in some writing classes into my schedule so I can have an outlet. I miss having a writing class...correction: a creative writing class [I'm currently in Literary Analysis and that is NOT an outlet].

What else? I finally bought the Dope album "No Regrets". It came out back in March and I've been eying it and honestly, forgetting about it for a few months. I'm obsessed with one song called "Dirty World" because it's just that, dirty, and I fucking love it. I love Edsel's sexual style and the lyrics...some Dope songs just sound like sex. You'd have to listen to know. I'll leave the "Dirty World" song at the end of this post. As an album as a whole, there isn't a song I skip when listening to it, so that's some good shit right there. Get on it.

Man, what a mouth I have in this post. My vocabulary must be feeling a little vulgar tonight.

That's all I have for you tonight. I'm too busy putting off my life to really get into a post. I did, however, put up a new entry on napalm dreams & little things earlier and have another dream to post but I might get to that tonight. I also got a book in the mail that should be absolutely, brilliantly mind-numbing and leg-paralyzing. I'll talk a little more about it in my next post, granted I get into enough.

Until next time, go listen to some Dope and break something.
Love,
-Napalm

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

napalm dreams & little things (pt. 2): the birth of a blog

Evening lovelies,

It's a Tuesday night, I'm sitting in my dorm room eating Salt & Vinegar Pringles, putting off a take-home exam and singing Sweet Child O' Mine which has been stuck in my head all day.
'She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky'
It never ends.

So the NEW BLOG is finally here! A dream I've been having finally sparked it and napalm dreams & little things was born! about 10 minutes ago...

As I've said before, I hope for this to be a dream log and won't be constantly updated since it relies on my sleep patterns. Those need a little help themselves. However, whenever I wake up and can remember a dream I will make sure to post those for your analytical pleasure or simple curiosity. I'm excited to get the ball rolling and the first post will be up shortly (as soon as I get my next-ten-minutes life together).

This is how I procrastinate. Off to the new blog, see you there. Until next time...

Where do we go now?
Love,
-Napalm

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Beyond The Border; Turkestan

Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls, humans and...all you other creatures, today you are amazing and you should look into the mirror and tell yourselves that. Right now, go find a mirror. Anyhow...

I love coming up with titles for these posts, because they make no sense as they stand on their own, however- these two are the titles of the Tang poems I'm using in the paper I'm currently writing [insert breath here after run-on sentence]. It's not such an issue but I am exhausted and I have two write 3 more pages...and when you feel like shit, three pages can feel like ten. It's interesting research and once I get into I know I'll go with the flow, hopefully. Maybe not, who knows. It is more interesting to me because I get to talk a little bit about Russian history, and well, I have a soft spot for the hunkin'-landmass called Россия (in fact, it's almost like a love affair, it's just that good).

I gave in and bought new shoes today, after wearing the same ones for about the past seven years...to see the difference, take a look at these two photos: http://twitpic.com/lnrf3 and http://twitpic.com/lnre3. With this being one of the coldest Octobers on record, I guess it was time to go without holes and have whole shoes again...even if they are made of canvas.

Other future purchases I would like to discuss with you, is the Nikon D3000. Originally I had my hopes set on a Nikon D60 but they are circulating those out now and since I want a new camera from somewhere I can get a protection plan, I'm not buying used even if everyone would advise me to. I barely have the money to buy the damn thing, let alone fix something if it breaks. So all-in-all I just wanted to know what your opinion is (unless you already gave it to me nine million times *cough cough*) and whatever else you wish to say.

Now enough of this procrastination, maybe I'll actually go and get some work done instead of messing around with everything else that isn't my paper. Until next time...

Sit back, relax, and enjoy your flight.
Love,
-Napalm

Saturday, October 10, 2009

pillow talk

[Ignore the post date. Actually posted on 12.October.2009]
What a past few days it has been for my body.

It seems that one of my roommates is prone to getting sick and I believe it's been twice now (having only lived with her for a month and a half) that I've caught whatever she has. So Friday I took a bus back to Boston and have been practically living in bed since then. Twenty-two pills later, I returned to campus via the same bus line last night.

Now it is Tuesday and it's the greyest of grey days. Raining all day and all night...I just may have to give in and buy new shoes. My converse are torn to shreds and I have been wearing them for years. Normally, I would say fuck it (as I have for the past two years with giant holes in my shoes) but now it's affecting my health so I guess it's time to beat up a new pair. I'm just cheap, broke mostly, and find it ridiculous how much I have to pay for a pair of shoes that my mom paid TEN BUCKS at the most for when she was a kid (three decades ago). So either I'll find myself buying new cons at the mall on Thursday or I'm ordering some Draven shoes on Interpunk.com. We shall see.

What else? I think it may officially be time to start the "Dream Blog". I might work on the layout tonight and a possible intro and if that's the case I will come back and edit in a link into this post somewhere/mention it in my next post. With the amount of medication I've been on in the past week, I've been having some crazy dreams that would be interesting to put down on paper/via blog.

Ok I have a conference with a professor at 1:45 so I'm heading to Zeke's for a Chai tea/Hot chocolate and to see if I can track down my friend who works in the library. Until next time darlings...

give'em the boot,
-Napalm

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

napalm dreams & little things

Hello my beauties...

So it's been about another week since I posted last. I don't want this to become a weekly blog deal but it's slowly becoming that way. I try to post when I don't feel swamped by life, and life is drowning me.

As I sit in the library, Facebook chatting with my friend who is currently studying in Germany, I have this overwhelming urge to not edit the paper that is due tomorrow. It's an analysis on Mikhail Bulgakov's Heart of a Dog...and is for my Intro to Russian Contemporary Society & Culture class. Don't get me wrong, I am fascinated with what I learn in that class but the workload is daunting. I will eventually get to that later.

In other news, I need more music in my life. How is this possible? I don't know. I feel stagnant in my music...but then I'll go put on another Rancid album and I'm happy as pie...If pie was ever happy. So I've been doing something I hate, searching MySpace. I used to get a lot of music from MySpace (about 5 years ago) when that was the only thing I used the internet for, other than tagbooks (if you were a member of the original bolt, send me a line!). So if you have anything to share with me, new or old, yours or not, let me know. I WANT SOME MUSIC.

Also, I don't know if I proposed this idea before but I have been wondering for the longest time about a "dream" blog where I keep track of the dreams I have. It obviously wouldn't be a daily update because I probably wouldn't remember ever dream I've had. It also wouldn't take away from this blog because I wouldn't be ranting on my dreams, just telling them as they are. So let me know what you think and maybe I'll give it a go.

Well that is all for this evening. I have a meeting in 7 minutes and counting for AEGIS [which I will explain another time I assure you]. So until next time...

Mind The Gap.
-napalm

Monday, September 28, 2009

Where can I fit myself into my schedule?

Yes I went to see U2 last week. Yes I had a good time. I do not plan to blog about it. Sorry if that disappoints you. The end.

Ok, not the actual end yet.

My schedule leaves me very little time to live, and sometimes I love it while other times I despise it. I am a full time student who works four days a week and is part of a major organization here on campus- not to mention two of my class require me to read 5+ books this semester (one class is a book a week). I enjoy this most days, while some days I just deal.

My job is finally taking off. I'm an Academic Mentor at the Center For Academic resources (CFAR) here at UNH. See the site for my job description. Some days are good, some days are bad- like most jobs but most people wouldn't be able to my job. Try being the person to help someone put their academic life back together...it's not always like that, but some days that's how it feels. I'm actually writing some of this from the computer cluster at my job because this post has been sitting in the drafts folder for about a week now.

So currently I have this countdown to December, where the brain power behind this blog you people should read is going to be gracing me with his presence for two weeks and it's been a long time coming. This countdown has also made me realize how short and how long time can be depending on the way you look at it. It's now 84 days until he'll be here which means 81 days until this semester is officially over. Not long if you ask me. Time needs to take a nap.

New thing this week! I've created a Twitter account for my blog. I say it's for advertisement/updates but I'd truly say I'm just addicted to it. So if you want to be reminded about new posts because I'm a bit off-schedule lately, check out: twitter.com/AggregateBlog.

Let me know about your blogs! I WILL read them, I do not lie. I have a soft spot for music/band blogs ;)

Until next time, "if Little Red Riding Hood should show up with a bazooka and a bad attitude, I expect you to chin the bitch."

Love,
Napalm

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Ole Ole Ole Ole: No Bull

If there is one thing I really miss while I'm on campus, it's FOOTBALL.

I'm a Manchester United fan through and through, but without any way of watching the matches while at school...coming home this weekend,I'm not picky with what teams I'm watching. Especially if they're in the Premier League.

I'm currently watching the Chelsea vs Tottenham match, which is actually live so when this game ends, you'll get your scores. [game goes to Chelsea 3-0...people falling apart. EIGHT MINUTES of stoppage time. Crazy game. If you didn't see it, catch a repeat!] The Spurs are definitely putting some pressure on the boys in blue. I'm also happy to see Robbie Keane back with Tottenham [personally, I feel that's where he belongs]. Also in football today (but not televised for me to watch), Manchester United defeated Manchester City 4-3 with a late goal from MICHAEL OWEN in the 90th minute. I'm sure I stated in a previous blog how wonderful it is to have Owen wearing the number 7 jersey that graced the shoulders of many great United players.

Yesterday I made myself get up for a repeat of the United vs Besiktas match in the Champions League which was won by a header from Paul Scholes, my favourite ginger. The day Scholes (and Giggs as well) retires, I'm going to feel a bit empty watching United games. I didn't get into the beautiful game until I was about 12, at which time the academy boys had been playing for close to a decade already. I came into United during a time of Scholes, Keane, Giggs, Solskjaer and I don't know if it will be the same after them. Of course I will always love United, without question, but United fans who have been watching them for decades before me completely understand the feelings we have about certain squads.

Liverpool vs West Ham was also on yesterday. A lot of action in that game, ending 3-2 going to Liverpool. I also caught a few USL and Super Liga games yesterday which aren't of much importance to me so sorry I didn't catch the final scores. I did, however, watch the Milan vs Bologna game this morning[1-0 going to Milan] and now I sit through Chelsea to get my EPL fix. Tonight I'm hoping I catch the Blackburn Rovers vs Everton [3-0 goes to Everton] match to see England's Paul Robinson who I believe is brilliant, and of course Phil Neville (a former Red Devil and brother of United Captain Gary).

That's all I have for you at the moment. I'm as content as can be with the number of games I've watched in the past two days. I'll return to update scores as I get them and who knows, you may get another blog from me this evening. I'm still procrastinating, so I tend to write a lot. I'm still sick but heavily medicated so not feeling whatever's going on in my body. I've done a little amount of academic work. AND if you happen to stumble across this, or just read this from time to time and don't comment, that's fine with me. BUT if you blog, please leave me a link so I can check out your posts. I love blogging and bloggers and will give any blog at least one chance. So leave it...and I think that's all I have for now. Until later...

Take me home United road!
Love,
Napalm

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Tell Gravity to Let Go of My Ears

Gather 'round! Bring the disinfectant wipes...

I am sick! Sick in the head? Maybe, but that's not the question of the hour. Am I illin'? Yes I am. I have the wonderful, ninja-germ: the common cold, which not-so-wonderfully keeps changing it's make-up (why we can never find a final cure for it!)...My internal and external balance is completely fucked and driving in cars makes me feel like I've been on a merry-go-round one too many times.

Procrastination is in full force tonight. I'm being a horrible individual and I'm missing class on Monday and most of Tuesday so I'm kind of in the "why do it?" mode. I will do my work, just not tonight. Nope.

I'm still on the lookout for a record player decently priced.

This post is kind of list like but that's alright, because I really don't have anything to post tonight. Just trying to not fall asleep and it's slowly not working out.

One of the assignments I'm putting off is finding Hip-Hop lyrics to analyze. I personally am not the biggest fan of hip-hop and I think my professor is just trying to give us an assignment "on our level"...but this is not on my level.
Ok so I have to make an edit to this blog. I decided to search for lesser known hip-hop artists for my assignment. I stumbled across OHHLA.com and these lyrics from Code Poets. I've never heard of them and I haven't listened to the song but here's the link to the lyrics I chose, and I dig them. Here they are.


INSTEAD, I'm going to leave you with these videos and lyrics and music I would rather spend time listening to:


(I don't know why this video won't re-size, but watch it anyhow)






Vitamin C to the rescue,
Love,
Napalm

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Sprechen Sie bitte langsamer. Я не понимаю. Yo no quiero pensar.

Hello my homo sapiens,

It has been a long couple of weeks and I'm blogging more out of necessity than responsibility. Meaning- I'm blogging to get all the chaos jumbled in my cranium out somewhere not because I have posted in almost three weeks...

First off with some bad news, it's been almost a week since my uncle passed away on September 11th. He is someone who was very good to me as a child and was there through many of the bad times that seemed to find me. I don't want to dwell on it too long since it's still fresh in my mind and very depressing. All my love uncle <3

Today is a Thursday which means my week is basically over. No classes on Friday, just a few work hours which are no big deal...then I'm on a bus home to Boston where I will be until Tuesday morning. My mother's birthday is in April but we're celebrating it this weekend. Why? Because my mother is in love with U2...who just so happen to be playing in Massachusetts on Sunday and Monday. Back in March or so, I got us tickets for this Monday. Mind you my mother is young, she hasn't even hit 40 yet, and has been listening to U2 for a little over 25 years now and has yet to see them. I'm glad to have bought tickets for us to go together since U2 has always been something we've shared and reminds me of home when I'm away. I also bought us seats on the good, ole reliable Rockbus to take us to and from the venue. She was freaking out when I got tickets...she's probably freaking out now that it's so close. Wait until the day comes I take her to Graceland...

At this point I'm reading almost 2-3 books a week, while learning two languages, and taking two courses that are writing intensive (but should also be labeled reading intensive). I work 4 days a week and am part of 3 organizations on campus. I HAVE NO TIME. It is stressful but I enjoy always having something else to do...I get bad when life is stagnant. It's very depressing to me. Obviously I like to have time to relax and that's when I procrastinate on Youtube or go to the movies and live a little.

One thing I wish I had more time for was music. I live by albums and there is nothing more I want then to hide between my headphones when times get overwhelming. I haven't been keeping up with any new albums or songs or artists...that's just not how I do. I usually stumble over things and they squeeze there way into my collection. One video I would like to share with you is H2O's video for their song "What Happened?" The image I posted above is of the shirt I'm wearing...an H2O shirt (surprise!) and line from this song...and I couldn't agree with it more. Plus, Matt Skiba from Alkaline Trio sings during the bridge (correct musical term? I think so) and adds his awesomeness to this already kick-ass band. So take a look and I'll see you all back in the 617 this weekend.


Never forget what it feels like to be young.
-Napalm

H2O What Happened feat. Lou Koller and Matt Skiba